DEMOTIVATED.!! there is no difference in a family where you and the rest are not appreciated by father.

here i am yet again, this time.. after somany years, it finally came to a point i should just sit down, clear my mind and think of it clearly...

with all the shit that has been going on for all these years within my second family. i seriously need to think whether is there still a future being there. for the family.. for the ones that we have looked after each other all of these years.

why cant GrumpyBastard understand all the hardships that all of us has been through? why does he still take everything that we have worked so hard for away from us? what the hell is he thinking? what kinda fat farked up grumpy martha focker is he..? gosh i wish sometimes i can just tell it right in his god damn farken face about this. why should i hold back? worse comes to worse is i'll loose my place within the family. does it matter? will it make a difference? how can i help the rest of them? what else do i need to do to keep this family together?

all because of 1 stupid old fat bastard... everything is screwed. haih.... he who never realises that all his wealth is coming from the poor people that are using up their precious life, precious time, precious efforts to make thing come through. and all the bastard have to do is to spoil it. to topple of the pillars that holds this united family.

its been a demotivating time for all of my brothers and sisters. we who know that is happening is truely saddened all of us. i think its just a matter of time before the family spits, all our dreams gone, all out hopes wasted. all the efforts becomes dust...

only wish right now, i wan this family to be one. as we were, all for one and one for all. united we stand. divided we fall.

GrumpyBastard, i hope you will realise one day, when the family is gone, your are as broke as a fucking homeless man beside the street. without at place to turn to, you only place you can go.. is Six Feet Down Under.

*words of a very pissed family member*

back to work.. back to crap...

yea yea.. its monday all over again, dint do much during the weekend other than hanging out at HPC trying to complete my car setups, and yeah got a new bodyshell to play around with... thats about it, it was a perfect weather yesterday as it was sunny clear skies... too bad i was still getting my bodyshell done, so dint do any racing\practice at all.

that was my weekend. and well.. coming back to present state, its monday... woke up with an intention of not going to work, however what can i do? hangout at HPC again? nahh!! better not waste anymore time there.. there is things that needs to be done and there is stuff that i need to do. so lets do it once and for all, get all the crap done and over with.

well.. what do i need to do today? hrmm.... still thinking... still figuring out... still wondering...
i think i've been infected with remote madness already now.

I'm Sick Of Working Day... !!!!

well i thought today was gonna be an OK day for me, atleast i had enough sleep last night.. KOed about 12am.. all da way until

well, the first thing that came to me mind was "Ohhh SHIT... WP... need to rush there..."
so left the house about 12pm... sending "sweetie" back to the office aswell as taking my laptop from the office..

the moment i reached office i rushed up, grabbed my laptop rushed back down.. and as soon as i was the NKVE, i was doing 160km/p without realising it.. all i was thinking of was "WP WP.. no downtime after office hours.. only lunch hour, How to do it ah? bahh!!"

not too bad, managed to reach WP in 30mins.. light a smoke, took a few quick puffs, and there i was.. on my way in to see EH. thinking in my mind, his gonna screw me big time. and well.. obviously it was my fault for Flying him Aeroplane so many times. aihh.. how sad....

anyway, after installing WM on the new server, i'm sitting here waiting for the config to finish restoring, and yeah.. seems like restoring the users are failing.. Heck! this is shitty... anyhow.. gonna wait til i see it finish first before thinking of how to resolve this.

dang!! my mind is thinking of RC again... how i wish i was at the tracks today practising on my lap... hrmm... yet i'm feelin sleepy now. aircond + tired = SLEEPY...

lets hope tonight it wont be raining, atleast i get to go and test out the new set of tyres i bought yesterday. hopefully it is better then the previous one. dang.. i wanna finish this asap.. i wanna go off.. i dun wanna stay in this freaking place... it feels like the end of the world driving here.

well, now that toitoi's responsibilities has lessen with the political crap going on in her office. so i'll see what she comes out with her decision on whether to stay in the same team or move to a better one (i assume). but work is work, depends on how challenging you want it to be.

To Sweetie: Go Go Go Girl... i'll always be behind you supporting your everystep.
To ToiToi: Gambate!! need help just ask. (ask and it shall be given)
To Myself: stop being a lazy arse... been too lazy already lately. need too sort this out else dont work. go home and be a lamer\loser.

Yaaahoooo!!!!

Latest Updates....

my exchange (the old one) is up and running again, thanks to abang joe for the wonderful help.

next thing in my mind is, wanna go snake and play RC already... dont feel like working anymore today... or mabbe go home and sleep... hmmm.... sleep is a good idea.. atleast i know zechs is at home sleeping like a pig now. Dang him....!!

eyes feel like wanna pop out already... i wonder how is dutdut doing? bet she's sleeping like a pig as well, snooring here and there... LOL

here i am, infront of my not so trusty laptop... wanting to sleep. yet have to be awake... else i cant event drive home... sleepless in the office... bahh!!

Woot!!!! exchange... is.. almost up lah...

Pheww..!!! just managed to sleep for about 1 1/2 hours today, been working on the new exchange server the whole night, boy oh boy, there seems to be alot of changes in exchange2007.. dint knew it was only x64 compatible, lucky thing the server supports x64. well, was fiddling around with it almost da whole night last night til this mornin, its a great feeling knowing that I GOT A NEW SERV to play around with.

anyway, was hoping that could get it up and running by morning, too bad... dint manage to do that due to time constrains and also fatigue that is killing me, had some bad muscle tension da whole night too.. gosh!! hate it when that happens.

well, just reverted back to the old exchange for today, atleast there should be enough time for me to atleast have another go with the new server and make sure that all is configured properly before i push everyone to rejoin domain all over again (yeah.. the painful part.. all users complaining... but wtf... i dont care, they wanna use or not... aint my problem. dont like go work somewhere else lor)

well, i guess i'm gonna take a nap in my md's room first, nyek nyek nyek... too tired already actually.. so atleast get some short nap before i start working ....

*note to self* want to skip my appointment at klang.... rant rant rant... grrrrrrrrr

My favourite FAQ.

How I Wish i can have this FAQ.

Q. How Come I'm Not Receiving Any Emails?
A. Call Your Administrator. Its Not My Problem When Your Not Receiving EMAILS.

Q. How Come Google is Blocked?
A. If You'd Stop Using Google To Search Porn, It Wouldnt Get Blocked.

Q. How Come My Emails Cannot Be Sent Out?
A. Of Coz It Cant Be Sent Out, Your Sending A 250mb File Attachment. How To Sent?

Q. Why Cant I Connect To SKYPE?
A. It Aint My Problem, I Dont Use Skype. Call Skype And Ask Them.

Q. I'm getting Alot Of Spam. Why Is That Happening?
A. If You Be So Clever Not To Subscribe To Porn Sites, You Wont Get Any.

Q. Relaying Denied, How Come?
A. You Ask Me Ah? Your Server Ma, Go Figure.

Q. How Come My Internet Browsing So Slow Ah?
A. Ermm.. What ISP Are You Using? If Your On Streamyx Your Screwed.

Q. How Come My Email So Slow One?
A. Atleast Its Faster Than SnailMail Isnt It.

Q. Server Down... Help Me.!!!
A. Press F1 For Help.

Q. What Is A Reverse DNS?
A. Go Google.

Q. How Come When I Send To Some Domains, I Get A Bounce Back Saying I'm Blacklisted?
A. There, Your Blacklisted, How Can I Help? Do I Look Like SPAMCOP or SPAMHAUS To You?

Q. What Are You Doing There?
A. Talking To You.

Q. Are You Free To Talk? I Got A Couple Of Questions.
A. Yes, If Not I Wont Be Answering The Phone.

Q. My Administrator Told Me To Contact You.
A. Ask Your Administrator To Call Me Back.

Bahh!! how lucky...

Hell yeah... its been a nice day, waking up at 10.30am, dragging myself to work knowing that i have to go all da way to westport to setup a load balanced server later in the day..

reached office about noon after i slowly took my own sweet time to bath and such. got into the office, seems to be peaceful and nice... so i decided to go out for lunch...

went to alisan to eat the old skool "panmee" havent had that in ages, still think that the "panmee" in old town rulez...

well, finally finished my lunch, on the way back "Sweetie" called me saying that there was some problems with the exchange server. so i rushed back to the office, logged on to the exchange server and ...
WOW.... first time i see a complete black logon.. (other then the mouse cursor and some very very screwed up icons). well, i guess it was due to the hdd running out of space, so decided to check on it, and same thing a blank black my computer window came out. now i'm starting to get abit annoyed with microsoft... bahh.. with alil help from the windows shortcuts, walla.. managed to see the hdd properties and yeap.. confirmed it was the hdd running out of space.

cleared about 40odd gigs of old exchange transaction logs... and i was thinking to myself.. great now everything should work fine. so i loaded up system manager and guess what... an error popped up. dang!! screwed....!!!

my rainy days is beginning already, yesterday it was the damn firewalls hdd died and today.... my exchange server.....

well, right now sitting here infront of my laptop slowly backing up everyone's email just incase if anything really really nasty were to happen, atleast got backup ma... i decided to get myself a blog and rant about all these out in the open.. who know who reads it... it doesnt matter does it?

its the beginning of a long day... its now 4.25pm and shit it takes ages to backup those mailboxes.. gotto start setting quotas for all of the users already...

more to come.... yeah yeah yeah....