hrmm... seconds after seconds, minutes after minutes, hour after hour... the time to take off to dubai draws closer and closer... the anxiety, the fear of flying, the curiousity of visiting a new place.. all this mixed feelings is running wild in my mind... yeah yeah.. it might be a small deal to some of u guys out there, but for me.. first time leaving the country alone.. without anyone close beside me.. what can i do? heck i dont know... just wanna go there and get things done and come back.. thats all i wanna do..
cant wait to take off.. cant wait to come back... well.. i asked for it.. so i gotto be responsible for it. just do it.. dont look back.
Han says, “Life is simple, you make choices and don’t look back.”
this should be an eye opening event for me, after 4 years of working within malaysia, i finally get to go overseas for work. happy as i am, sad to leave my love ones behind for a week. so whats running in my mind now? i have no idea.. its just weird... pusing sini pusing sana.. ahhdui... how now brown cow...
Friday, August 3, 2007
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Page 9534 Of My life... bahh...
yeap.. been on earth for almost 9534 days... wow!! amazing... cant believe it... has it been that long? hrmm...
well lets start crapping... guess i'm very sure i'm flying off to dubai now, just waiting for the confirmation on tickets of when i'm leaving and when i'm coming back.. yeehaa.. lets see.. dirham currency wise, its almost da same as m'sia .. gosh lucky thing aint it. so hopefully the cash that i'm bringing over there should be enough to cover my expenses. keeping my fingers crossed on this. what else.. hrmm.. well.. for now thats all lor.. i'm still pretty much worried about flying there, still cant think of what i should do in the plane.. other then sleep and PUKE.
was thinking of getting some extra memory sticks so i can bring more games along with me for my psp. but the one drawback is.. battery... the stock one wont event last for 6 hours... goshh!! so.. what can i do? well.. just sit back and relax... i'll figure it out when i'm on the plane... as the usual method.. "chap sang lah"
the girl that called me from TAK earlier (forgot whats her name tho.. haha) scared me abit when she mentioned that, you'll be flying out as early as today, so standby to pack your things... wow!! thats scary aint it... not even ready yet already want me to fly out liao.. wahh liao eh... gimme sometime to settle settle abit ma... i wish i can fly out either on friday or saturday.. atleast can go trackday before i fly off.. haha... "REMOTE MADDNESS" i'm going crazy.. crazy.... very crazy... almost to the extend of insane.
work pressure has been getting on my nerves lately.. so hopefully my trip to dubai can help me clear my thoughts..
GAMBATE!!!! ......
well lets start crapping... guess i'm very sure i'm flying off to dubai now, just waiting for the confirmation on tickets of when i'm leaving and when i'm coming back.. yeehaa.. lets see.. dirham currency wise, its almost da same as m'sia .. gosh lucky thing aint it. so hopefully the cash that i'm bringing over there should be enough to cover my expenses. keeping my fingers crossed on this. what else.. hrmm.. well.. for now thats all lor.. i'm still pretty much worried about flying there, still cant think of what i should do in the plane.. other then sleep and PUKE.
was thinking of getting some extra memory sticks so i can bring more games along with me for my psp. but the one drawback is.. battery... the stock one wont event last for 6 hours... goshh!! so.. what can i do? well.. just sit back and relax... i'll figure it out when i'm on the plane... as the usual method.. "chap sang lah"
the girl that called me from TAK earlier (forgot whats her name tho.. haha) scared me abit when she mentioned that, you'll be flying out as early as today, so standby to pack your things... wow!! thats scary aint it... not even ready yet already want me to fly out liao.. wahh liao eh... gimme sometime to settle settle abit ma... i wish i can fly out either on friday or saturday.. atleast can go trackday before i fly off.. haha... "REMOTE MADDNESS" i'm going crazy.. crazy.... very crazy... almost to the extend of insane.
work pressure has been getting on my nerves lately.. so hopefully my trip to dubai can help me clear my thoughts..
GAMBATE!!!! ......
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
To Go or Not To GO?? that is the ultimate question.
hey hey hey... its yet anothing day, another new page in life. so whats about today?
well, firstly was oversleeping today and missed the appointment that i've set with ToiToi. made it to office about 1.30pm (hrmm.. almost like its my dad's company aint it? heh.. how i wish it was) was in the office having some chitchats between the guys.. when my MD called me in to have a quick chat, seems like his pretty concerned over my team's current status of being so demotivated after accidentally reading an email which is suppose to be P&C between the CEO and the secretary.
he needs my help to keep the whole team together and have them working happily here, therefore he needs my help to weed out all the feedbacks which i can get from them, and see how we can improve things. and ofcoz he did mention of trying to get an increment for them.. i wish i'm included as well.. hahaha... keeping my fingers crossed over that part.
after that drama, went out to get a load balancer hardware, so met up with toitoi for a quick drink and see how were things with her. seems like she has her own problems as well, still deciding whether to move or not. i dint say much as i have my own issues to settle. well, here's a piece of advice of my the old bags always say, you never try you'l never know. u wont loose anything at all, as u'll gain knowledge from there. so there you have it ToiToi. go for it, things wont be as bad as it is whether your here or there. work is work. goals can be set and bend. so.. why worry. if you set to achive your goal, and i know your ultimate goal is to chase your dream. i on the other hand, do not have a dream to chase anymore, the dream has come and gone, now my goal, is to get life stable and marry my baby, thats all.. hah..simple minded man i am... (yea yea... life is never this simple aint it...)
well, after all that.. went off to HPC, work on my car.. had it fixed.. damn happy... bought some extra blings for it. :) yeah yeah... blings blings = money well spent.. hahaha.... damn i'm ahbeng... wanna beng my ride ma...
well, spoken to MsTan about the dubai trip, and she says she'll talk to her boss and see how things goes, if it all goes well, i'm on my way to dubai... yeeehaaa.... dubai dubai here i come... wait... wait... hold my horses... but i'm scared of flying one wor.. how ah? 6 to 8 hours in a plane, with my balls 30k feet up in the air.. urgg!! can i overcome this? can i overcome my fear? can i be a man and do it right? hrmmm..... fear is something scary...
so lets see if its confirmed, if it is. so just do it.. just like NIKE. or.. my fav phrase "life is like a dick, when its hard. just fuck it." so just go oni lah, wont die one.. if really die.. means fate lor... correct or not? god creates and takes life. so why bother think so much.
3 days in dubai... flight and accomodation included. just that food and transportation is not... i wonder how much will it cost? hrmmm...
well.. thats about it today... and something just went through my mind... will i meet all this great ppl that i've met in the next life? will i meet baby and lieb? hmm.... point to wonder... and sometimes i also wonder.. who is it out there that misses me... when i wont be around...
well, firstly was oversleeping today and missed the appointment that i've set with ToiToi. made it to office about 1.30pm (hrmm.. almost like its my dad's company aint it? heh.. how i wish it was) was in the office having some chitchats between the guys.. when my MD called me in to have a quick chat, seems like his pretty concerned over my team's current status of being so demotivated after accidentally reading an email which is suppose to be P&C between the CEO and the secretary.
he needs my help to keep the whole team together and have them working happily here, therefore he needs my help to weed out all the feedbacks which i can get from them, and see how we can improve things. and ofcoz he did mention of trying to get an increment for them.. i wish i'm included as well.. hahaha... keeping my fingers crossed over that part.
after that drama, went out to get a load balancer hardware, so met up with toitoi for a quick drink and see how were things with her. seems like she has her own problems as well, still deciding whether to move or not. i dint say much as i have my own issues to settle. well, here's a piece of advice of my the old bags always say, you never try you'l never know. u wont loose anything at all, as u'll gain knowledge from there. so there you have it ToiToi. go for it, things wont be as bad as it is whether your here or there. work is work. goals can be set and bend. so.. why worry. if you set to achive your goal, and i know your ultimate goal is to chase your dream. i on the other hand, do not have a dream to chase anymore, the dream has come and gone, now my goal, is to get life stable and marry my baby, thats all.. hah..simple minded man i am... (yea yea... life is never this simple aint it...)
well, after all that.. went off to HPC, work on my car.. had it fixed.. damn happy... bought some extra blings for it. :) yeah yeah... blings blings = money well spent.. hahaha.... damn i'm ahbeng... wanna beng my ride ma...
well, spoken to MsTan about the dubai trip, and she says she'll talk to her boss and see how things goes, if it all goes well, i'm on my way to dubai... yeeehaaa.... dubai dubai here i come... wait... wait... hold my horses... but i'm scared of flying one wor.. how ah? 6 to 8 hours in a plane, with my balls 30k feet up in the air.. urgg!! can i overcome this? can i overcome my fear? can i be a man and do it right? hrmmm..... fear is something scary...
so lets see if its confirmed, if it is. so just do it.. just like NIKE. or.. my fav phrase "life is like a dick, when its hard. just fuck it." so just go oni lah, wont die one.. if really die.. means fate lor... correct or not? god creates and takes life. so why bother think so much.
3 days in dubai... flight and accomodation included. just that food and transportation is not... i wonder how much will it cost? hrmmm...
well.. thats about it today... and something just went through my mind... will i meet all this great ppl that i've met in the next life? will i meet baby and lieb? hmm.... point to wonder... and sometimes i also wonder.. who is it out there that misses me... when i wont be around...
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
DEMOTIVATED.!! there is no difference in a family where you and the rest are not appreciated by father.
here i am yet again, this time.. after somany years, it finally came to a point i should just sit down, clear my mind and think of it clearly...
with all the shit that has been going on for all these years within my second family. i seriously need to think whether is there still a future being there. for the family.. for the ones that we have looked after each other all of these years.
why cant GrumpyBastard understand all the hardships that all of us has been through? why does he still take everything that we have worked so hard for away from us? what the hell is he thinking? what kinda fat farked up grumpy martha focker is he..? gosh i wish sometimes i can just tell it right in his god damn farken face about this. why should i hold back? worse comes to worse is i'll loose my place within the family. does it matter? will it make a difference? how can i help the rest of them? what else do i need to do to keep this family together?
all because of 1 stupid old fat bastard... everything is screwed. haih.... he who never realises that all his wealth is coming from the poor people that are using up their precious life, precious time, precious efforts to make thing come through. and all the bastard have to do is to spoil it. to topple of the pillars that holds this united family.
its been a demotivating time for all of my brothers and sisters. we who know that is happening is truely saddened all of us. i think its just a matter of time before the family spits, all our dreams gone, all out hopes wasted. all the efforts becomes dust...
only wish right now, i wan this family to be one. as we were, all for one and one for all. united we stand. divided we fall.
GrumpyBastard, i hope you will realise one day, when the family is gone, your are as broke as a fucking homeless man beside the street. without at place to turn to, you only place you can go.. is Six Feet Down Under.
*words of a very pissed family member*
with all the shit that has been going on for all these years within my second family. i seriously need to think whether is there still a future being there. for the family.. for the ones that we have looked after each other all of these years.
why cant GrumpyBastard understand all the hardships that all of us has been through? why does he still take everything that we have worked so hard for away from us? what the hell is he thinking? what kinda fat farked up grumpy martha focker is he..? gosh i wish sometimes i can just tell it right in his god damn farken face about this. why should i hold back? worse comes to worse is i'll loose my place within the family. does it matter? will it make a difference? how can i help the rest of them? what else do i need to do to keep this family together?
all because of 1 stupid old fat bastard... everything is screwed. haih.... he who never realises that all his wealth is coming from the poor people that are using up their precious life, precious time, precious efforts to make thing come through. and all the bastard have to do is to spoil it. to topple of the pillars that holds this united family.
its been a demotivating time for all of my brothers and sisters. we who know that is happening is truely saddened all of us. i think its just a matter of time before the family spits, all our dreams gone, all out hopes wasted. all the efforts becomes dust...
only wish right now, i wan this family to be one. as we were, all for one and one for all. united we stand. divided we fall.
GrumpyBastard, i hope you will realise one day, when the family is gone, your are as broke as a fucking homeless man beside the street. without at place to turn to, you only place you can go.. is Six Feet Down Under.
*words of a very pissed family member*
Monday, July 30, 2007
back to work.. back to crap...
yea yea.. its monday all over again, dint do much during the weekend other than hanging out at HPC trying to complete my car setups, and yeah got a new bodyshell to play around with... thats about it, it was a perfect weather yesterday as it was sunny clear skies... too bad i was still getting my bodyshell done, so dint do any racing\practice at all.
that was my weekend. and well.. coming back to present state, its monday... woke up with an intention of not going to work, however what can i do? hangout at HPC again? nahh!! better not waste anymore time there.. there is things that needs to be done and there is stuff that i need to do. so lets do it once and for all, get all the crap done and over with.
well.. what do i need to do today? hrmm.... still thinking... still figuring out... still wondering...
i think i've been infected with remote madness already now.
that was my weekend. and well.. coming back to present state, its monday... woke up with an intention of not going to work, however what can i do? hangout at HPC again? nahh!! better not waste anymore time there.. there is things that needs to be done and there is stuff that i need to do. so lets do it once and for all, get all the crap done and over with.
well.. what do i need to do today? hrmm.... still thinking... still figuring out... still wondering...
i think i've been infected with remote madness already now.
Friday, July 27, 2007
I'm Sick Of Working Day... !!!!
well i thought today was gonna be an OK day for me, atleast i had enough sleep last night.. KOed about 12am.. all da way until
well, the first thing that came to me mind was "Ohhh SHIT... WP... need to rush there..."
so left the house about 12pm... sending "sweetie" back to the office aswell as taking my laptop from the office..
the moment i reached office i rushed up, grabbed my laptop rushed back down.. and as soon as i was the NKVE, i was doing 160km/p without realising it.. all i was thinking of was "WP WP.. no downtime after office hours.. only lunch hour, How to do it ah? bahh!!"
not too bad, managed to reach WP in 30mins.. light a smoke, took a few quick puffs, and there i was.. on my way in to see EH. thinking in my mind, his gonna screw me big time. and well.. obviously it was my fault for Flying him Aeroplane so many times. aihh.. how sad....
anyway, after installing WM on the new server, i'm sitting here waiting for the config to finish restoring, and yeah.. seems like restoring the users are failing.. Heck! this is shitty... anyhow.. gonna wait til i see it finish first before thinking of how to resolve this.
dang!! my mind is thinking of RC again... how i wish i was at the tracks today practising on my lap... hrmm... yet i'm feelin sleepy now. aircond + tired = SLEEPY...
lets hope tonight it wont be raining, atleast i get to go and test out the new set of tyres i bought yesterday. hopefully it is better then the previous one. dang.. i wanna finish this asap.. i wanna go off.. i dun wanna stay in this freaking place... it feels like the end of the world driving here.
well, now that toitoi's responsibilities has lessen with the political crap going on in her office. so i'll see what she comes out with her decision on whether to stay in the same team or move to a better one (i assume). but work is work, depends on how challenging you want it to be.
To Sweetie: Go Go Go Girl... i'll always be behind you supporting your everystep.
To ToiToi: Gambate!! need help just ask. (ask and it shall be given)
To Myself: stop being a lazy arse... been too lazy already lately. need too sort this out else dont work. go home and be a lamer\loser.
well, the first thing that came to me mind was "Ohhh SHIT... WP... need to rush there..."
so left the house about 12pm... sending "sweetie" back to the office aswell as taking my laptop from the office..
the moment i reached office i rushed up, grabbed my laptop rushed back down.. and as soon as i was the NKVE, i was doing 160km/p without realising it.. all i was thinking of was "WP WP.. no downtime after office hours.. only lunch hour, How to do it ah? bahh!!"
not too bad, managed to reach WP in 30mins.. light a smoke, took a few quick puffs, and there i was.. on my way in to see EH. thinking in my mind, his gonna screw me big time. and well.. obviously it was my fault for Flying him Aeroplane so many times. aihh.. how sad....
anyway, after installing WM on the new server, i'm sitting here waiting for the config to finish restoring, and yeah.. seems like restoring the users are failing.. Heck! this is shitty... anyhow.. gonna wait til i see it finish first before thinking of how to resolve this.
dang!! my mind is thinking of RC again... how i wish i was at the tracks today practising on my lap... hrmm... yet i'm feelin sleepy now. aircond + tired = SLEEPY...
lets hope tonight it wont be raining, atleast i get to go and test out the new set of tyres i bought yesterday. hopefully it is better then the previous one. dang.. i wanna finish this asap.. i wanna go off.. i dun wanna stay in this freaking place... it feels like the end of the world driving here.
well, now that toitoi's responsibilities has lessen with the political crap going on in her office. so i'll see what she comes out with her decision on whether to stay in the same team or move to a better one (i assume). but work is work, depends on how challenging you want it to be.
To Sweetie: Go Go Go Girl... i'll always be behind you supporting your everystep.
To ToiToi: Gambate!! need help just ask. (ask and it shall be given)
To Myself: stop being a lazy arse... been too lazy already lately. need too sort this out else dont work. go home and be a lamer\loser.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Yaaahoooo!!!!
Latest Updates....
my exchange (the old one) is up and running again, thanks to abang joe for the wonderful help.
next thing in my mind is, wanna go snake and play RC already... dont feel like working anymore today... or mabbe go home and sleep... hmmm.... sleep is a good idea.. atleast i know zechs is at home sleeping like a pig now. Dang him....!!
eyes feel like wanna pop out already... i wonder how is dutdut doing? bet she's sleeping like a pig as well, snooring here and there... LOL
here i am, infront of my not so trusty laptop... wanting to sleep. yet have to be awake... else i cant event drive home... sleepless in the office... bahh!!
my exchange (the old one) is up and running again, thanks to abang joe for the wonderful help.
next thing in my mind is, wanna go snake and play RC already... dont feel like working anymore today... or mabbe go home and sleep... hmmm.... sleep is a good idea.. atleast i know zechs is at home sleeping like a pig now. Dang him....!!
eyes feel like wanna pop out already... i wonder how is dutdut doing? bet she's sleeping like a pig as well, snooring here and there... LOL
here i am, infront of my not so trusty laptop... wanting to sleep. yet have to be awake... else i cant event drive home... sleepless in the office... bahh!!
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